Dark Music: Electro - Underground - Film

Now I'm a nice guy, most of the time. But a few tough times and a very
sharp and ALWAYS right instinct for people means I encounter
motherf***ers more than most of you. Simply because I can see through
the veneer.
I treat people with respect, I do what I say, I listen, pay attention
and I'm much more reliable than most.
If I'm your friend and you're genuine, it will be through good and bad
times.
I will try to help people whenever I can, if their intentions are good
for music, for people and for life in general.
I'm secure about who I am, why I'm here, and what I want to do. That is
why I can't be fooled. manipulated, or taken the piss out of without me
LETTING you do it.
So recently when someone tries to use the Sh*t out of me coz they're
skint, trying to undermine my own confidence and talking b*llocks to
me.
It's going to backfire, very badly….
Insecure little boys/girls are what you need so go find them, just
don't let me catch you…..
As I said , I am a good guy, UNLESS you p*ss me off, then I remember
you for 20 years, and will leave you to suffer .
I do my best to help people and live life right without crapping on
people, because of that I get help when I need it.
There are a few people around here in China are beginning to realise
that….
I'm brave and will stand up against ANYONE, so if you want to talk to
me, you better mean what you say…..
Ulterior motives are something I can spot from a 100 paces, what lies
beneath is very dark, and it always comes to my aid when those people
are in front of me…..
A message from a soldier
PS Film work is gathering pace again, with a crop of indie work coming
up, mostly free but projects I want to do to get me started
Check the Archive as always

18th March 2006
Not sure how I feel about having a birthday here, not much to
celebrate yet I think. Survival is nothing to celebrate you just get on
with it. Getting too old to have to deal with that sort of crap any
way. My future is as uncertain as it gets, the only thing that will
remain for certain is that I won't be satisfied unless I make my living
from making music. That's what brought me here in the first place, just
my music doesn't fit here…
Because I'm a survivor I've turned around what was heading straight
over the nearest cliff.
I've paid for it with selling half my studio worth a few grand, leaving
a job behind that could've funded anything I needed to pursue what I
was engineered to do, costing my family money they couldn't afford,
leaving a place to live, risking health, my equipment ( without it I'm
dead here).
The cost has been higher than most realise, I'm still not back to a
point (a long , long way off) where I have the same spare cash free as
the U.K.
I actually need to be higher than that, film may be the saviour of
that, but it feels like I could have been doing this 9-10 months ago.
It's too much to go through just to have to start from the beginning
again.
It's like a shark has taken a big chunk out of me , but I've recovered,
meaner than ever…..
I do things with my time ( I haven't slept today) that others don't,
but that doesn't mean I'll give a list of what I'm doing, I don't have
to.
No one else does. Watch this space though, film is where it is going to
happen. Dj work is not something I will be stupid enough to get sucked
into as I know what I'm supposed to do. I'll use it to back what I
really need to work on my OWN music, as thats always a higher level
than DJing can ever be, I don't care what anyone says. It separates the
men from the boys and the egos from the people that only live to make
music….
Many people would go with that and start to believe they're somebody
when they're nothing. There are no plans for me to get a big head, I
only get bookings because I'm western & can put some quality tunes
together without screwing it up. I don't rate that as something to be
proud of too much.
Faced to much of the “right Face” “Right people” bull in England. It's
worse here. Time to go more stuff do and you will start to see the
results in the near future. Check the Archive as always
The Ghost Walks With You….

Tue 14th March 06
The impossible task has been completed. The thing that no one else
could do.
Get the 2000 RMB back from Midland Realty, that they withheld…. Just
because they felt like it.
How did I do it? Ah well , I'm in China so I couldn't possibly be able
to work that one out….
It didn't involve the local mafia, which is bullsh*it anyway, you
should learn to fight for yourself not call someone else if you have a
problem.
If I'd listened to “this is china”, “no chance”, “put it down to
experience” I'd be reluctant to try anything involving any business.
I'd also be 2000RMB lighter.
Just because you're in China, doesn't mean you have to put up with it.
Fight back , otherwise you get what you deserve, or you could go
home…..(???)
Nothing changes if you don't make it change. Can't be bothered? Too
much effort? I don't really have much sympathy.
Don't let people walk all over you, it gives the message that anyone
else can do it too.
Talking of going home, you're welcome to vote on where you think I'm
going, of course I could be lying and not telling ANYONE what I'm
actually going to do. Ah but then someone will think they can work it
out, but , sadly, I'm very wise to this kind of thing.
So it remains a mystery, I could actually be lucky enough to pick….
1. England
2. Philippines
3. Taiwan
4. Singapore
5. India
6. Japan.
7. USA
8. Bangkok
9. Spain
10. Russia
11. Germany
12. Brazil
13. Mars
14. Moon
15. My Arse