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Archive for October, 2006

One of the best things that can happen to you in life is to find out who you are and why you are here.
It happened to me a while back, and it gave me a great deal of confidence in myself, the decisions I make and in my judgement of other people.

You will find grown men and women who have no idea what their “real” persona is, they’ve never looked.
Usually because they are scared of what they see, or have caught a glimpse in the mirror and it has been an ugly sight..

I love The Hall Of Mirrors By Kraftwerk and miss listening to it on vinyl, it’s lyrics ring very true

“The young man stepped into the hall of mirrors
Where he discovered a reflection of himself
Even the greatest stars discover themselves in the looking glass
Even the greatest stars discover themselves in the looking glass
Sometimes he saw his real face
And sometimes a stranger at his place
Even the greatest stars find their face in the looking glass
Even the greatest stars find their face in the looking glass
He fell in love with the image of himself
and suddenly the picture was distorted
Even the greatest stars dislike themselves in the looking glass “

I’m very glad to not have this problem, insecurity doesn’t rear it’s head much, things that made me very angry or really burned me up don’t do that anymore. I know 100% for certain I am doing the right thing, for the right reasons.
I’m here on this planet for a reason, and I know exactly what it is.

Other people have tried to control and manipulate me. It worked 15 years ago, WAKE UP!. It doesn’t work anymore.
You control by undermining someone’s confidence, attacking them personally, what they want to do, their friends, their loved ones….
It works on weak people, but when your wise to it you can see it coming, and it’s pitiful to watch someone grasp at controlling and get frustrated when it slips through their fingers. I pity all of them.

Being an INFJ personality type means you haven’t met too many, 2% of the population, so most people don’t know how to deal with that.
But the problem lies with in their own failings not you.

Stay strong to your convictions and what you do, but most of all look into yourself, be honest with who you are and you will have the best bullet proof armour there is, real soul…

So understand this: I can’t be broken, manipulated, undermined, destroyed or swayed from my path by anyone out there.
Those who try look like pathetic excuses of humanity, and then wonder what my secret is.
Why they can’t live without their “crutch” in life whatever it may be, and me I don’t need what drives other people.
I’m LAUGHING right now that some people cannot understand this.

I’m here to do one thing, I have a gift, I’m going to do all I can to share it with other people like you.
Then I can die happy that I did what I was put here on this earth to do, designed and engineered, this was always my set path to follow..

Anything less is a waste of my life, and I will not be interested in life, anyone or anything if I don’t do what I’m built to do.
I will grow old and die alone because the colour and the sparkle of the “real” world will have left me.

So the next time someone says to you you’re wrong, wasting your time, or attacks you personally, WAKE UP!
It’s war and the best weapon is to use your own belief in your true calling to shrug it off like a dying man’s failing grip.
I LOVE to watch people get all wound up about it, but that’s their problem, it’s not my fault your face has become distorted in the looking glass…

Be a soldier, stand up, fight covert, don’t let ‘em see the real you and you can survive and get through to your true goal

Until next time
The Ghost Walks With You……

Paul Bishop
The Ghost That Walks

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You know how many times you think it’s supposed to happen for you.
Everyone says that it should, just hang on, it will come, but it doesn’t.

Being a believer in instincts and wheels turning for a reason, when something, no matter what you do or what you try, seems to fall apart, you start to get worried.

This is happening to me right now and I’m worried.
What I’m doing appears to be moving, but on the other hand, the Golden Egg seems to be turning into a rotting 1000 year old turkey egg.

Maybe I’m wrong, but since I’m here trying to survive, the thought of still trying to survive on peanuts while waiting for the Golden Egg , I just can’t accept.
Time is very precious and since I’m sat here, unable to send out demo CD’s to film makers, even when unemployed in England I was able to do that, you wonder if I am really wasting my time.

My instincts in this case are hard to read, wishful thinking gets in the way, and it’s hard to shut out. My instincts tell me to hang on, but that’s what I think, and thinking isn’t what instincts are supposed to be about.

But I am writing for a short film, The Mannequin, in orchestral style, and as promised you will hear the results of that soon. It’s coming out sounding good, even though getting used to using Finale ( and on Windows “the program has stopped responding” XP) is painful.

I thought pro tools was bad, but this is the most unintuitive software I have ever seen.
Everything has a weird set routine that you wouldn’t really know, unless you have learnt it.
Change one parameter and it’s screwed, editing Midi, is made more complex and tedious than it has been for about 15 years. Cubase on an Atari has better midi editing.

Let’s hope I can get some cash for Live 6 which has video support (now that is a good move), but it will still have to be PC, as my mac can’t take the pressure of Garritan or full blown no 6.

Keep watching, posts to my podcast, and on the website will be coming soon.
Stay strong and don’t give up what you really want to do…

Paul Bishop
The Ghost That Walks

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