Feelings of Dark Flight

Once again, that strong feeling of wanting to leave town, rears it’s head.
Maybe it’s the approach of Christmas that’s making me feel that way.
But the feeling is getting stronger and stronger, I don’t think it’s going to subside.
I think for the good of the music, the electro the film, to able to feed it properly again, it has to be done.

I don’t care what everyone else here thinks, I have really learnt about human nature here, and what happens to people
when they’re given an opportunity to sh*t on others.
In this place when given that choice, it’s just too tempting, so people take it, because they can get away with it.
In their own country, it just wouldn’t happen as much , and I’ve watched over the last 2 years how people change, and their attitude changes.
They’re here so it’s easy, “well I’m in China, so I can do what I like, what are you going to do?”.

Despite what has happened, my attitude to music has changed and grown very strong again, like the bad old days in the beginning, which is a big blessing, and will propel me forward elsewhere.
Perhaps that’s why I had to come here, so that could happen, so I could educate myself again, and realise that I can and always, will be able to compete.
The only big positive of being here was meeting Yheng, the odds of meeting someone like her in my country were slim, and I’d given up on that anyway.
Music is my main thing in the Uk, and despite searching around for a soul mate, it all just came back to I’m not happy if I’m not achieving my goals in electronic music and now film.

It’s been a tiring day, but again I’m still here on the schedule, writing this even when no fu*ker is reading it.
Because the Ghost is alive, awake, aware and ready to battle anyone who wants to try to interfere with my path again.
If it wasn’t for him, I would have quit or joined the b*llsh*t party a long time ago.

Don’t ever give up what you want to do…
Then The Ghost will walk with you….
Paul Bishop
The Ghost That Walks