Dark Music: Electro – Underground – Film

After a positive party at Zinc, Check previous events for details, things MIGHT be looking up. BUT bitter experience tells me to wait and see. To be honest it's the only thing keeping me here.
If it doesn't kick of here in the next 3-6 months, I will look to return to England.
I hope I can give England a miss, I think there are more positive places to be, my experiences here don't make me want to go back there.
I will take my girl with me as soon as I can, I will not leave her behind, wherever I go.
Everyone else, well, they can do what they want.
I am ALONE here in China, I don't trust anyone except my girl.
I don't trust who I work for, when I buy things, who I rent from, when I take a bus, a taxi. It doesn't matter which country people are from, here I am on my own.
I could have stayed that way in England and not suffered as much.
Alone in England is no problem, but here? No one gives a shit apart from 1 person.
Ask for help, you might get some, but more likely you won't get any help. 'Work it out for yourself'.
That's fine with me, I'll work it out, I am a fighter after all, but I know when to retreat so I can fight another day.
But when I'm where I should be , I won't be taking any requests for “help” from those that had the “not my mess” , “not my problem” attitude.
So Christmas here is not pretty, I will get some time with my girl, but she is busy too. But that's a necessary evil.
The only real friend I have here…..
Without her here, my phone stops ringing, so where are those people now?
Out of sight out of mind, short sighted? Definitely.
I am looking out for myself, so have no interest. It's painful to find out what people are really like, although I can feel it each time, I still try to give people some benefit of the doubt.
But not anymore.
Working hard trying to find some film leads. Sowing seeds for the future.
Did a bit of eerie music for an audio documentary called the Mothman Legacy, available from

Almost all but the playing after the first 10 mins is improvised 1st take stuff. Just playing while record was running.
It seems to fit pretty well, so I'm pleased with it.
So for all of you not happy about your time this year, keep fighting, don't give up, no matter what.
But don't waste your time with people who can't help you, move on.
Turn the page, start another chapter and begin another cycle…. Till next time
Don't forget to check the archive as always.
The Ghost Walks with you

09th Dec 2005 Zinc Bar, Guangzhou, China, 1st Anniversary Party
The first time playing Soul/Motown/Hip Hop/R&B here. I even played all my old school reggae as chillout at the end. A full house and everyone happy, Martin & his partner (owners of Zinc), Tiger Beer sponsor.
So a good night, feedback from all is good, so another party soon I hope in January.
There is a link to the hip hop/r&b section here, 80 mins long.
I'm quite happy with it although think I could have done a lot better.
The laptop takes the pain out of mixing hip hop, but should have been more creative as a result.
Next time I will pull out the stops a little more, if the laptop can take it!

The last 3 days have been good and bad here.
I got to see my girl in HK and it was a short but sweet visit. I miss her a lot, but I know it won't be forever. She is worth waiting for, which is not difficult for me.
I'm also beginning to discover what China is all about. People will screw you here given half a chance, so be on your guard.
As much as I want to trust and give people the benefit of the doubt, my instincts are right. I feel something else underneath with a lot of people here. That doesn't bode well for Chinese people.
I'm hearing stories like this from every quarter of people, western, fillipino.
So if you are coming here, or plan something here, be on your guard.
Trust nothing and no one, deal with people on recommendation, watch yourself on every turn.
The desire to change, screw with and alter things, even if they work, is what is too hard to understand. This is why the traffic is so bad, and any kind of work under Chinese management is very likely to feel like constant criticism.
But be confident in what you do, research, so you know you are doing it well.Do what you believe in…
Don't be shaken, be brave and not afraid, it's not the same as the west.
If you are unsure you will have psychology used on you with great delight, so stand firm!
If people don't like what you say they will try to screw you, not pay, contracts mean shit here.
I don't like to say it, but I want to make sure if you come here your eyes are WIDE open, and you watch your back.
Look me up if you need some advice, luckily I'm tough from being screwed over in England. But not every one has had to deal with that…
Anyway, on a more positive note, I hope to have some parties coming up, maybe DJ ing Soul/Reggae/Hip Hop but no cheese, quality stuff. Pleased about that cos I can play music I'm into, even if it's not my own. Maybe bring something here to people who appreciate it or maybe even never heard it.
It could help to build something here but at a different angle.
Don't forget to check the archive as always.
The Ghost Walks with you